aim – Ava's Journal Entries

April 8, 2009

So last night I talked to Devin about Ferrari. He asked me if Brandon has talked to me yet. I said not yet…why? Devin said because Brandon just wants to talk to me about it instead of having Devin or anyone else in the middle. So, hearing this I get excited. I’m like so, do you think he likes me? He said, “I think he might, he’s just thinking about it and going to talk to you about it.” So, I went to bed last night thinking that he’ll be talking to me today. He didn’t. And he wasn’t online tonight either. I’m getting frustrated and almost like un-hopeful. I know I’m just over thinking it and overreacting. He’ll talk to me when he’s ready and it’ll hopefully be good. Man, if he says he doesn’t want to go out with me yeah, I’ll be crushed but I hope it won’t be awkward between us….? Who knows. Maybe we’ll go to the mall tomorrow night and hang out. I hope so. It’d be a lot of fun to hang out with him. I guess that’s it for now. I’ll go to bed. G’night.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I feel like Brandon really took his time with communicating how he felt about me. I remember asking his friends all the time about him because they all had cell phones and Brandon didn’t! I could only talk to him on AIM or call his home phone.

November 16, 2008

Sunday

Just got done watching Jeff Dunham’s Christmas Special which was pretty funny. Not as good as his others. So today I hung out with David. Which I now know that I don’t like him as much as he likes me. We met at the mall. Hannah and I were sitting in the café court and he like comes out of nowhere and sits by us. We talk for a bit. I can tell he was really nervous. I was a little bit too. We just walked around the mall, Grace and Maddy showed up for a bit. While we were walking around it was kind of awkward because he was either walking in front of us or behind. I was just shy…jeez. I hate that about myself. But Maddy and Grace left, and it was a little bit better. Hannah and I and him went to Deb and tried on these dresses for him. Mine was black, it looked So good. And we just hung out and talked. It was an alright day.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was the first and only time I ever spent with David in person. We connected while at a summer camp when I was in middle school. He left me a note on my seat in the cafeteria. We talked on the phone and on aim for months and then broke up. We never saw each other in person until this time when we were older and not going out anymore. We were getting along on the phone, but ultimately, I wasn’t physically attracted to him. I didn’t want to waste any more of his time after seeing him, so I let him know the same day. I do still remember calling him after seeing him and letting him know. I had to call his home phone, and his mom answered, and I remember feeling so bad about having to tell him. I wanted to be truthful though. I knew I deserved to be with someone who didn’t live a couple hours away too. So good to know for sure!

October 29, 2008

Wednesday

Soooo going from creepy stalker guy to awesome, sweet guy.

I just got off the phone with David 😊 I had talked to him on aim last night, got his number and was texting him last night and today. We talked about like everything. We did like 20 questions, each of us took turns asking questions. I found out some things that I might have not needed to know….but he has promised to come to my town to hang out with me. He told me we have to cuddle and kiss…yeah. Not sure if I’d want to do that? Anyway, he called me and he said, “Hey sexy.” Yeah, sooo anywho. Not much else to report. I can write more later.

G’night! ❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember feeling so cool to have all this attention from different guys at that age. David was a comfort to me, because we had dated online a few years earlier. So connecting with him at this age made it more real and I wasn’t sure if I was ready to actually take those next steps if he did come visit me in my town.