chatting – Ava's Journal Entries

November 1, 2009

Yesterday was Halloween! It was a good day! I went to goodwill with Eddie, as we were walking in Hunter was walking out. And everyone said hi to me when I walked through. Then we went to Walmart and got sodas. I had to pick up dad at his new building and then I went over to Delia’s for an hour to help set up lights and stuff. Came home, carved pumpkins with the family and then got ready! I put on my makeup and got dressed. I looked really good. I went over to Delia’s an hour early to help set up the rest. It was a fun party, yeah it was cliquey, but oh well. It was good to party with everyone again! I gave Rhonda a ride home and told her about Derek and my 12 minutes. So yeah. Got home at midnight and went to bed. Today I hung out at home. Good lazy day. Went through my notes from friends and relived all that. And now I’m going to read my old journals. This should be interesting.

G’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember I dressed up as if I lived in the 80s with long socks, and an off the shoulder shirt and my hair in a ponytail on the side of my head. It was fun to hang out with my friends for Halloween and dress up together.

July 27, 2009

Monday

Talked to Rhonda on the phone for an hour, made up a nickname for Hunter – Cheney, long story. And then I talked to Cheney on the phone for two hours. We would have hung out but it was raining. So yeah. I went to work, Hunter stopped in, and we talked for a little bit. Got out on time, I went to night games at the soccer park. I invited Hunter but he said he was sore, it hurts when he walks, but he wouldn’t tell me exactly what because it’s embarrassing. Hmm… so yeah. Hopefully him and I will hang out tomorrow when he gets off work. Because he and I have things to discuss. We made a deal. He’ll get a Facebook if I save more money. Kind of a weird deal because I do save most of my money, but whatever. I feel like I have more to write, and I actually do, but I don’t really want to. Nothing more about today though. So, G’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: Thinking back on whatever embarrassing thing happened to him it’s somewhat comical now. He was probably doing too much with himself and didn’t have the confidence to share it with me.

June 14, 2009

Sunday

Went to work from 11-6:30. Longest day ever! So I had break with Derek, and he told me “You’ve got it going on,” so… I’m thinking that he likes me, because he kept flirting with me all day and asking me if I had any plans for the summer and what I was doing after work. When he found out I was working til close he was happy. So yeah on the way home, I followed him home. Turns out he lives on a street in my neighborhood, at least that’s where he went after work today. Hehe so I drove past on my way back from Burger King and saw him outside. Oh! And there was a guy that left me a note with his number to call or text him, he gave the note to Shirley while I was out on the floor, I guess he was in his 20’s. Tara told me about it while we were counting my drawer. He didn’t look creepy, just was a creeper for writing a note and not coming up to me. So yeah, that was my day. Now off to bed. G’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember Tara telling me about this note a guy left for me and I didn’t even receive the note because they made the decision that a 16 year old shouldn’t be connected with someone in their 20’s. Looking back on it I’m relieved and grateful they helped me out like that but at the time I was disappointed because I was loving all the attention I could get from other guys.

June 13, 2009

Saturday

Went to work – Hunter was there 😊

We had our lunch break together 😊 and I talked to him! 😊

I asked him if he works tomorrow and what time he works til today. He seemed kind of surprised that I walked to him, but I think that was good. At least I’m hoping. He doesn’t work tomorrow but that’s okay.

After work mom made me come up to the cabin and after I did the dishes and walked down the street to check facebook and Aaron drove past, he stopped and we talked for a bit. I told him I got a job and he gave me his cell number, so yeah. I texted him to see if I got the number right but he hasn’t texted me back so I don’t know. I just hope things move along with this Hunter fella. Hopefully, or else I meet someone….?

A both Rhonda and Delia are going out of town this whole week. ☹ who am I going to hang out with? I guess I could call Tabitha, I haven’t hung out with her in a while. Well I have to leave here at 8am so, g’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: At this point the cabin didn’t have internet so I had to find free wifi down the street with my ipod touch. I also remember not being as close with Tabitha at this point as we were in middle school. Also, being around guys who I used to crush on and then just feel platonic about was kind of cool for 16 year old me.

April 22, 2009

Wednesday

Today was a pretty good day. I didn’t have to work! So I had a free day. (work is going pretty good, btw). So I went out to eat with Delia and Grace at Texas Roadhouse. It was pretty good. We talked about people and the guys and stuff. After we ate we stood outside for a little while and talked, and then Grace had to go home and clean so Delia and I decided to drive around, we got gas and then drove up by Rhonda’s house and ended up stopping at Brandon’s and talked to him for a while. So yeah. It was a good day. And I think hopefully Brandon and I will finally get to that shopping trip on Saturday. If mom and dad let me go. Of course. so yeah that’s about it for now.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I miss having so many friends to do things with and make memories with.

April 8, 2009

So last night I talked to Devin about Ferrari. He asked me if Brandon has talked to me yet. I said not yet…why? Devin said because Brandon just wants to talk to me about it instead of having Devin or anyone else in the middle. So, hearing this I get excited. I’m like so, do you think he likes me? He said, “I think he might, he’s just thinking about it and going to talk to you about it.” So, I went to bed last night thinking that he’ll be talking to me today. He didn’t. And he wasn’t online tonight either. I’m getting frustrated and almost like un-hopeful. I know I’m just over thinking it and overreacting. He’ll talk to me when he’s ready and it’ll hopefully be good. Man, if he says he doesn’t want to go out with me yeah, I’ll be crushed but I hope it won’t be awkward between us….? Who knows. Maybe we’ll go to the mall tomorrow night and hang out. I hope so. It’d be a lot of fun to hang out with him. I guess that’s it for now. I’ll go to bed. G’night.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I feel like Brandon really took his time with communicating how he felt about me. I remember asking his friends all the time about him because they all had cell phones and Brandon didn’t! I could only talk to him on AIM or call his home phone.

March 20, 2009

Friday

Recap of my amazing vacation to Hawaii!

So, I had probably the best vacation ever this past week! When we were in the San Francisco airport for four hours I sat with a bunch of girls and we colored pictures for each other. And me, Rhonda and Hannah walked up and down the area and talked, we opened starbursts with our tongues and discussed the whole Beth and Nate situation because Beth ignored Nate for almost the whole trip, because she wanted this trip to be with friends not her boyfriend. Which is sad for him because he doesn’t like that idea at all so he started a notebook with Hannah and all they talk about is Beth. Anyway, the first night was sort of weird. We got there and had to go down to the lobby twice to reactivate our room keys. And it turns out that something in the door wasn’t activated so we finally got in and started unpacking. Then we went out to eat at subway and when Brandon saw us all the guys came and ate with us which was cool. We girls walked back by ourselves and finished unpacking and stayed up for a while talking about stuff including me and Brandon. 😊 I spent a lot of time with him on this trip, if he wasn’t such a player or flirt with so many girls I’m pretty sure him and I would be going out.

But anyway, the first full day there was good! We had the half day tour of Oahu and we stopped at various places to take pictures. Brandon and the guys were on a different bus than us, so we only got together at one of the stops during that. After that we had a free afternoon, so we went to the beach! Rhonda, Tabitha and I went straight into the water! We rode the waves and just enjoyed it. I was so happy to be swimming with friends in the ocean! Everyone else came over after they went out to eat. Rhonda, Tabitha, Brandon and I went back out into the waves. I tried to stay by Brandon, I think he liked my swimsuit. 😊 and like I wrote before, he carried me! Hehe. But he could have just been being nice… there were a lot of instances that week that steer toward he might like me. I found out him and I were in the same group for the scavenger hunt that night. Rhonda found out and she said, “It’s fate!” hehe. So that got me kind of excited for that night. Turns out though that I was completely exhausted during that so the scavenger hunt wasn’t that fun but hanging out with Brandon and Abby was.

The next day was the Polynesian Cultural Center. It was a long day. But fun. I pretty much explained all about today in the last pages, moving into the night of Tuesday (after we performed). We were all really hyper, so we went out shopping. Originally started all of us but we decided to have the girls and guys split up which was slightly awkward. I think Delia was jealous because the guys were hanging out with us more than her and Bridget. It’s not something we can control, Brandon just ends up tagging along with us when we leave the group. Honestly, I’m glad about that, but he can do whatever he likes. But while we went shopping that night I got pearls, a shell necklace and I think I was running a fever because I was insanely hot and I felt so tired, so we ended up going back and we went to bed. The next day (Wednesday) was snorkeling and the hike up to Diamondhead and that last night while we went shopping was probably the most fun I had with Brandon, him and I walked together and we kept bumping arms and flirting and the whole time Rhonda, Tabitha and Hannah were smiling at us. Maybe he is incredibly oblivious to my feelings for him…? Obviously Delia and Bridget aren’t, I just hope they don’t tell anyone because I don’t’ want people finding out and talking to me about it…. So, that’s pretty much my vacation. I wish I was still there.

Present day me: I love revisiting these journal entries about my band trip to Hawaii! It was an amazing trip and I made really great memories with my friends. It was also awesome to have a sort of flirtation-ship with Brandon during that week.

March 18 & 19, 2009

March 18, 2009 & March 19, 2009

Wednesday

Tabitha and I woke up at 6:00 am to go snorkeling, AND I wore a tampon for the first time! Snorkeling was a lot of fun! I hung out with Tabitha, Abby, Brandon, Brad, Craig and Devin. While we were in the water we saw turtles, eels, many fish and we saw dolphins swimming all over and jumping around. Sadly, I didn’t have my camera with me. After that we walked back to the hotel and got ready for the hike up to Diamondhead. Tabitha and I just booked it all the way to the top, took pictures and then walked down. It wasn’t that bad of a hike and the view was SO AWESOME!! We got to the bottom and rested with everyone else, drank water and just chilled out. Then we came back to the hotel and had free time until 4. We went to the beach and I got a smiley face on my tummy, it looks really cool! (with sunscreen and burnt skin) And we did some shopping. I finished buying stuff for everyone and then we went back to the hotel to get ready for the Beach BBQ. Both the guys and girls learned how to hula – pretty funny. And we just had a fun, relaxing last night. We all took pictures on the beach and then the four of us, (Tabitha, Rhonda, Hannah and me) went shopping. We stopped at the hotel to pick up Hannah and get our money first. It was a good night to spend with them. Brandon and I talked a lot and we had fun together while Rhonda was on the Diamondhead hike with Delia and Bridget. They talked about me liking Brandon. They said that they’ve noticed but they’re not mad, just told Rhonda that I shouldn’t get my hopes up because he’s all over too many girls. I know that. But they also said that he has actual feelings for more than one girl at a time. So that makes a ton of sense. I think I just have a crush on him and because I know who he is and his past and present I’m not going to go out with him because it’d be weird and I would probably turn into a really jealous girlfriend. So we went shopping in the marketplace and during that we met up with the rest of our group. Brandon hung out with them and the four of us spend some time together. Hannah and Rhonda got henna tattoos so during that Tabitha and I were sitting out on a bench and two guys come up to us and asked us to make out with them and to do drugs basically. It freaked both me and Tabitha out. So we went in and told the other two about it and then called the guys to see where they were, but they weren’t by us. So, we darted back to the hotel and invited the guys to our room to play cards. By the time the guys got here it was almost 11 so we just talked. I was laying on my bed with my hands on my sunburnt stomach and then Brandon was sitting on the bed, but then Hannah and Devin who were also on the bed got off so Brandon and I were the only ones there laying together. Except he was at the end parallel to the pillows and I was perpendicular to the pillows. Rhonda was looking at both of us and giving me a big smile. After the guys left Rhonda shouts, “Your head was right next to his dick!” it was so funny.

Thursday March 19, 2009

The four of us ate at iHop for breakfast! And we’ve been packing all morning. We sat on the beach for a while (just the girls) until the guys came and then us three went to starbucks and went back to the hotel to finish packing and leave.

Present day me: I wish I could relive these experiences again within my lifetime.

March 7, 2009

Saturday at the cabin.

DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA! I hate it. Wow. Something really complicated that I’ve gone over a million times in my head. I have to write it down because there is so much to this drama and so many possibilities and outcomes. So, Hannah and Kyle got back together, which nobody is happy about. But she obviously doesn’t care, because this is what she has wanted ever since they broke up. When they did break up, she was devastated, and that first weekend Rhonda, Hannah and I went to the Kalahari to celebrate Hannah’s 16^th birthday. Us three talked a lot about Kyle and how him and her weren’t that great of a couple. We said that she wanted that relationship with him more than he did. So, we came to a conclusion that they were better off apart. Well, I thought we did. We also talked about sex, and she said that she wanted to have sex with him, well she had thought about it. But we said she can do better than that. All Kyle cares about is “getting some” and she wants a real relationship, along with “getting some.” So ever since then she’s still liked him and been trying desperately to get him back. And it just turned out that because she was trying so hard for that she put her flirting all the way to the top, that ditzy personality and she turns everything into sexual innuendo, and I mean EVERYTHING. Which can get slightly annoying after a while.

So, Rhonda and I have realized all this and aren’t happy with Kyle and Hannah going out again. We know what kind of guy she wants – someone who worships her and wears the pants in the relationship and treats her right. Kyle doesn’t do any of that. He doesn’t wear the pants; she puts more effort into it than him. These two have nothing in common, except their both dirty minded. That’s all they talk about. Anyway, through all this and her becoming desperate to have him back and getting back together the girls of our group have been thinking of a plan to break them up. Find another guy for her and another girl for him. Just got to find those two. But Rhonda and I (her two closest friends) have lost our respect for her, she sank down to the lowest to get him back when she knows he’s not worth it, but she is still attracted to him.

And Rhonda and I think she’s been taking us for granted because she thinks we’ll always be friends, but she drops us anytime, anywhere for Kyle. It’s gross. She’s done it in mid-sentence to Rhonda! Umm, I’ll write more later. Beth is texting me saying Rhonda and I have been ignoring her and she understands Hannah’s side of this. Yeah. I need to talk to Rhonda.

Present day me: reliving this entry isn’t very much fun. I find it somewhat nauseating I was that involved with another person’s relationship but we were teenagers and we were trying to protect our friend in a way.

November 11, 2008

7:29pm

So, today was a normal Tuesday at school. This morning Rhonda, Tabitha and Shayla and I were walking around school and Rhonda’s backpack mysteriously became unzipped. So, she was yelling at us, “Zip it up! Zip it up!” It was really funny because then I said, “that’s what she said.” Haha.

AND last night I talked on the phone with David for like an hour. He asked me “What is one thing that you’d change about yourself?” I said I didn’t want to tell him. He kept begging me, so I gave him some clues: I would never have the money to do it, or the guts so he’s like, “it’s a physical change,” I’m like, yes. He said, “how can I say this…does it have to do with fruit?” haha yeah. I’m like “Yeah….” Then he said, “do you want to change melons into grapefruits?” YES! HE FRICKEN GUESSED IT! He knows me wayyyy too well. He’s like, “why?” I’m like, “Because…” “Why? They’re a part of who you are.” I’m like, “They get in the way.” Haha yeah.

Later he told me girls who have braces have good D.S.L. yeah. Most of my friends and I have had braces, which is pretty funny. So, I told Rhonda and Tabitha about DSL, Tabitha got it right away and it took Rhonda a little bit. I ended up telling her. So, Rhonda told Brandon about D.S.L. and the melons, grapefruit thing. And I told a bunch of people about the D.S.L. which I think is pretty funny. OH! AND I might be getting a job at Sonic!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: D.S.L. meant dick sucking lips. I was a sucker for dirty/sexual things like that. Knowing of this new acronym was like treasure to my mind.