December 30, 2009

December 30, 2009

NSFW entry!!!!

10:21am

Last night: I went to work from 5 til close and then had thold mom and dad that I’d be at Paula’s after work staying the night. On my way to work I called mom and told her that was my plan and she was really skeptical. Saying if I called Paula’s parents they would know? And being all paranoid. So at about 8:45 Paula walked into the store and said mom had called her dad and he didn’t know about me staing over so Paula’s dad called Paula telling her to call my mom. So when I got off of work I called mom and told her my plans and Paula was with me. Derek sat in the back of her car, too. Mom told me to call her from Paula’s house so I drove there called her, got my bloodhound cd back and then left. Got gas and went to Derek’s place 😊 we watched a part of a movie and then decided to go into his room. We caressed and kissed a lot, he fingered me (good) and I gave him a hand job, of course. and we had sex too. It still hurt, not as much and I just made it through the pain. You gotta get past the first time pains sometime. He had to finger me to get me warmed up and ready. We did it me on top and him on top, too. It was good. Yes, he wore a condom. After a while Jimmy came home. When Derek and I were done we watched the evil dead scary movie, Jimmy and I sat on the couch under a blanket and he caressed my body and I gave him a hand job all under the blanket. I was only wearing my jeans and panties and bra. So in the middle of the movie we decided to move to Jimmy’s room. Derek sat on the floor and Jimmy and I layed in his bed. We just ran our fingers over each other, he fingered me, we made out, I gave him a hand job. He wanted me to give him a blow job but I didn’t want to. When the movie was over, it was like 3:30am, or 4 or 4:30. I can’t remember. Derek and I went back into his room and just layed and talked for a while. We talked about a lot of stuff. Dating, life, work, Jimmy and us. It was about 5am and he was really horny. I was tired but I was horny too. I kissed his neck, we made out, he fingered me, found me g-spot (incredible!) pretty sure I orgasmed like two or three times last night. He couldn’t find another condom so we didn’t’ have sex again. But he came all over me. :p then we went to sleep. I only slept for two hours. My body was really sore. We cuddled and made out and did the whole shebang again. I changed my clothes and pretty much left. It was a good hang out. Very good. Fun, exciting, beneficial. I’m glad him and I are such good friends. 😊

More later!

*Acoustic with the girls yesterday.

*New Blackberry phone on Monday!

❤ Ava Estelle 😊

November 26, 2009

November 26, 2009

NSFW entry!

Thanksgiving day

Well let’s start off with yesterday:

Phoebe came over, she hung out with Eddie, Meryl and I. It was awkward honestly. Everyone went up to the cabin except me because I was called into work. So I went from 3:30 until close. It was actually a good shift. Took a lunch break, got a pizza treatza lunchable! I had lunch break with Diane, Dawn, and Derek. At one point the two ladies were in deep conversation and Derek was reading a book, he started rubbing my leg under the table. Nobody noticed. He went really close to me; it was nice. And then we had our 15-minute break together and I was standing looking at the schedule. He came in and grabbed  my ass and was basically all over me all during break. He vibrated his phone right on me through my pants and rubbed my leg and I made him hard. So, he let me touch him there. I gave him a hug and he grabbed my ass again. He was making me go crazy! When I took the garbage back there, he showed me a book he had found in donations about a ton of different sex positions. He’s like, “I’m going to do these with you,” and then when we could clock out, he came into the room right after me and grabbed my ass, back and front. And he’s like, “could you be late to your cabin?” and I said, yeah. But I didn’t have my phone so yeah. I want to hang out with him soooo bad. I’m hoping tomorrow night after work!

So today was thanksgiving. It’s been a pretty lame ass day. It’s just the five of us up here at the cabin. Eddie and Meryl have teamed up together and are excluding me, so I’m hating this. I am not in a good mood. And I just want to leave. I’m staying at Delia’s tonight and then going shopping tomorrow with her and Andrea. Oh! And I got my phone back today! Because I went to work last night and made the “right choice.” Yeah. So now I’m going to find something to do and try not to kill myself. (joke) ttyl!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: My mom was so weird with her punishments and expectations. She still didn’t trust me entirely but I still had to go to work and school so she had to get in touch with me somehow. I think having me go to work without my phone she realized I should have it anyway and made up that excuse to give it back to me then.

November 21, 2009

November 21, 2009

2:54am

NSFW entry!

Derek and Jimmy just left!!!

Meryl and I had the house to ourselves, so we invited some friends over 😊 I had to work so I didn’t get home until around 10ish. Gil and his girlfriend Emily came over and we watched The Big Lebowski. That was entertaining. They brought pizza and movies. Around 12:30am Derek and Jimmy showed up. They said hi to Gil and Emily and they had brought over beer and such. Gil and Emily had to leave. I told Derek that my sister was upstairs with her friends smoking weed. He got excited. We went up to her room, sat in a circle and everyone smoked except me. Peer pressure didn’t do me in! Then we went downstairs for a bit, then came back upstairs because Meryl and her friends wanted to watch a movie. So, us three sat on the S chair, and started the whole “she-bang” (literally!) and yeah. Derek and I kissed, and I did a hand job and he fingered me. Jimmy ran his fingers over my body. That definitely turned me on. He fingered me too. (I’m sore down there) they both did for a total of 4 fingers. We couldn’t turn any lights on, so that was good. We moved into my room, all three of us on my tiny bed. I think a board broke actually. Made out with both, got fingered by both, Jimmy has a way bigger dick than Derek, which is different. I was thirsty so I went into the bathroom and Derek followed, we humped standing up and then Jimmy walked in. After we were taking a break, Derek took a smoke. Jimmy and I went back to my bed. I sat on top of him, and we dry humped and kissed. He knows how to move his hands. And then Derek came back from his cigarette and said they should leave in 10 minutes. I didn’t want them to go.

So, I put my pj’s on, Jimmy came up to me hugged me, kissed, picked me up so I was straddling him. I think possibly/maybe Derek got a little jealous and at one point when Jimmy was fingering me and I had both my hands on both of them Derek whispered in my ear, “if he wasn’t here, I would have sex with you.” Eeeep! 😊

Next time.

SO yeah, I’m going to air out my room and get some much-needed sleep.

G’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: What an entry to revisit. No sex, but just a lot of fooling around with two hot guys when I was also hot. Hahahaha. I do remember this time and actually forgot the Gil and Emily were hanging out with me the same night before the guys came over. Looking back, Gil did flirt with me and hang out with me outside of work a few times. If he wasn’t in a relationship he and I probably would have gone out a few times too. They’re still in a relationship to this day as far as I know! I admire the trust they had and still have together.

November 6, 2009

November 6, 2009

Friday

NSFW entry!

So it was the last day of late start week, kind of overall lame because we didn’t do anything before school in the mornings. We were going to go to AFR but didn’t because Tabitha and Rhonda didn’t want to. They’re lame. So, after school I went to work, I worked with Aimee, Layla, Mildred, Paul, Derek and Mary. We got out at 9:32! Yeah. Derek got a ride from Jimmy, and I parked on a street nearby his house and went to his house because his parents weren’t home. Jimmy went into his room and we went in the guest room. It was one of the better times with him. 😊 man, it was amazing! Lasted about an hour. We were standing and kissing, he picked me up and laid me on the bed. We made out more, turned off the lights, and took off our clothes and did all the fun stuff. He fingered me with three fingers! It hurt a little but felt good. He also ate me out and I gave him a hand job of course and we both came. When he turned on the lights there were little prints of blood on the bed. I think he just went in too deep, so we were done with that. We went downstairs and he made a pizza. Jimmy, him, and me sat on the couch, me in the middle of course. At one point Derek got up and I laid down because I was really tired so my butt was to Jimmy and he smacked it. Hehe. He was drinking. So yeah. I ended up leaving around 11:45 and drove home. Good night. Uhm, and at one point we rubbed our….. together, skin to skin and I made the most noise I ever have. Hehe. So yeah. That’s about it for now.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: Another sexual escapade of before I actually had sex. It’s interesting to relive some of these moments because they’ve been almost scraped from my memory it’s been so long. I really got excited to have any attention from men on me. It was new and exciting to explore what sex and foreplay was all about.

October 8, 2009

October 8, 2009

Thursday

NSFW entry!

Great day! Didn’t have school!

I had to work last night, so after work I came up to the cabin and texted with Derek until I went to sleep. This morning I told mom I was being picked up by Delia at 11, so I took Meryl home and then went over to Derek’s. He went above my underwear and when I first got there, I was freezing, so we went under his blankets and warmed up. I gave him a hand job of course and we kissed and caressed, and I warmed up quick. I ended up getting really into it and scratched him right in the middle above his abs. It only lasted for like 45 minutes. I wanted to keep going but every time after he cums, he’s done, and we clean up. So, I hung out at his house for a little while longer and then walked home. Delia picked me up and we went to the store to get discount movie tickets. Then stopped at Starbucks for her and Wendy’s for me. She took me home and I hung out there until 4:30 because I had to pick up Brad, Devin and Rhonda to go to Zombieland! It was us three, Delia, Craig, Brandon, Harry, and Garrett. It was a pretty good movie, I liked it. Us three girls went out to eat afterwards. I took Rhonda home. I told her about Derek, she’s the only one who knows. And Meryl, but I completely trust her. Then came home, packed, picked up Meryl and the cats and came back up to the lake. Aaron was having a bonfire and called me to invite us but instead we hung out in the street, Eddie threw an ice cube at the cars, and I guess made a dent, but whatever. That’s it! G’night!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember seeing Zombieland with everyone and having a great time. Also, having more fun with Derek is a little cringe to revisit but still helpful in looking back on my past.

September 7, 2009

September 7, 2009

Labor Day

Monday

NSFW entry!

Yesterday I worked for 8 more hours. I had my pm break with Hunter but luckily Aimee showed up at 1 and I told her to take her break with me at 3. So we talked about my summer happenings and she knows Aaron and Tori because she’s a senior at their school. So I got out at 6 and mom picked me up and brought me to the cabin, Oma, Opa, Uncle Pat, Aunt Blanche, Phoebe and Ryan were here. It was awkward. Most boring thing ever! Anyway, I might buy Delia’s mom’s laptop for $250. So that would be sweet! I don’t know what else to write. School tomorrow. Not excited, started raining in Ecuador today. Great. Oh well, it had to come sometime. I can’t believe it’s only been a month since I started fooling around with Derek. Hehe. And the other night was probably the best. Even though his breath smelt so bad after, and he said I tasted good, so that’s weird to think about. But kind of cool that it happened. If I was 18 I’d have sex with him. Oh well! One more year, but let’s hope I won’t be fooling around with him still in a year. Well I guess that’s it. More later!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: the term raining in Ecuador was a code phrase my friends and I used when it was our time of the month. It’s really funny I wrote hopefully I don’t be still fooling around with Derek in a year….

September 5, 2009

September 5, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday

Went to work for 8 hours. Had breaks with Georgia. Saw Hunter and Eric. Kyle got there at 5 and I left at 5:15. So I went out to eat for dinner with Delia and then we went to see The Ugly Truth – rated R!! It was good and made a lot of dirty jokes. Then we visited Devin and Brad and played rock band. After that she dropped me off at the park where I met up with Derek. We fooled around and I let him in my pants this time. It was fun. He ate me out too. That felt good, too. We made out a little bit and then it was midnight. So, I had to go home. We walked together a bit and then parted. Came home, went on Facebook and got a friend request from Gil from work. Haha. We have no mutual friends, so I wasn’t sure who he was at first. So yeah, it’s 1:20am and I need to go to bed.

Pretty good day!

❤ Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: ohh memories of my escapades from the beginning of my chapter with men!

September 1, 2009

September 1, 2009

NSFW entry!

Tuesday

Woke up to a text from Derek saying he had the house to himself. So I took a shower and such and walked over there. He made some eggs, and we watched tv, and played wii. Then we went up to his room. I didn’t let him under my pants, just everywhere else. I gave him a hand job through his shorts. He came, of course. Then it was 12:15 and I had gotten there at like 9:30. So I walked home in time for Delia  to pick me up. We went out to eat and then went to hang with Andrea and give her camera back. We watched Degrassi and talked of course. After that Delia and I went to Coldstone and she brought me home. Dad took me to work, I walk into the break room and see Hunter, he was reading a book. I looked at the shift plan and then sat down and wrote on my time sheet. He then passed me an envelope with my name on it with a note saying: open when I’m at home or alone. And he left. So I worked my shift and went to Delia’s to watch 10 things I hate about you. I opened the letter at her house. It basically said he’s grateful for the time that he spent with me and told me Happy Birthday, and that he’s not going to try a relationship, friendship or communication with me. He also enclosed $100 in cash.

That’s it.

G’night! Very interesting day.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember opening the letter and reading it and being a tad confused by the perspective he wrote from. The letter itself was written in metaphors from a story he identified with from his experience with me. Then when I opened the envelope with the cash I was in shock. I remember calling Eric, who knew Hunter from school and work and asking him what he thought about this whole letter. He said he’s surprised but also knows Hunter is giving. So, it was a lucky time for me then.

August 25, 2009

August 25, 2009

Tuesday

NSFW entry!

Had off of work today!

This morning I hung out with Derek, in his room, on his bed. He’s a lot more gentle than Kyle, but I think I like Kyle better. And that only lasted like 20 minutes, and I walked home. I got ready, Delia picked me up and we went to Kayla’s, Garret, Harry, Timmy, Devin, Brad, Brandon and Craig and Grace were there. We watched a movie and then played poker. Us four girls ate dinner out and then we decided to have the guys come back over to Kayla’s for some strip poker since her dad wasn’t home! So, it ended up being us girls, Grace, Devin, Brad and Harry, we played strip spoons. It was so much fun! Kayla, me, and Delia were down to our underwear and bras, after Devin and Brad left Harry had to strip down to his boxers. It was so awesome – then Delia had to take me home. So yeah. So great to see everyone again! And I’ll get to see them all and more on Saturday! I’m really excited! So yeah. I talked to Kyle on myspace last night for a bit and told him I still want him in my life and that I miss him, but he signed off in the middle of our conversation. So I messaged him and he told me if I want to talk to him I should call him. So I got his number again and will probably call him tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about this, part of me wants him back and part of me just doesn’t want to go there again. So yeah. That’s about it for now. So more latah!

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember how fun it was to play strip spoons with everyone. We laughed a lot and it’s a great memory. It also entertaining to read about how I juggled boys at this time in my life.

August 22, 2009

August 22, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday 9:31am

Need to write down about the last couple of days.

Wednesday – I had the house to myself, so Kyle came over and we hung out. We got hot n heavy in my bed and cuddled. We both put on the Team Blue 5XL shirt. I got ready for work and stopped at the mall and got food, chicken teriyaki and we shared it. We took break together in my car. Then after work I drove home to change and then his Grandma’s house to get some food and to get his stuff from that morning. He ended up leaving it there because mom called me. I told her I was at home watching tv and she told me to go downstairs to listen to the messages. Fuck that. So we rushed home, I called mom back and told her I was in the bathroom and wasn’t feeling good, so she wanted to sit on the phone with me and talk to me about what I’ve eaten that day, I told her I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. So, she said good night and hung up. I laid in my bed with Kyle. We fooled around more, didn’t have sex though. I could be ready, but don’t want to risk it yet. Around midnight we went into the kitchen and looked through the booze. We took some shots of whiskey and crème de cacao. It tasted nasty. We went back upstairs and in bed again. Then around 3 am he got really hungry, so I ended up driving up to the gas station with him. He bought Flipz and stole other things. Came home, ate food, fooled around, and fell asleep together. It was nice. I made him cum during the day and it was a lot faster than Derek. And he said he’d only came from a hand job twice – counting that time. So yeah.

Thursday – we woke up around 11. I took a quick shower and then mom called to tell me they were coming home in a half an hour to pick me up and go to the mall with them. Uhmmm, I was really sore, it hurt to walk and sit down. So, I got off the phone with her, woke up Kyle, went to the bank, then got gas and dropped him off at home. I came home, told mom I was really tired and needed to take a nap, so I stayed home. Called Kyle, went to pick him up, we stopped at his friend’s house. Then came back here. We fooled around and “took naps”, got ready for work and went. I couldn’t work in donations because Kyle was back there, so I was out on the floor. Grr, oh well. After work I stopped at home and then picked up Kyle and we went to the gas station together, ate food, made out, and I took him home and drove up to the cabin. I was greeted by the adults, and we had a long talk about Kyle, saying he’s not good for me because he drinks and does drugs, and has gotten in trouble. But dad wanted to know what he did to get community service – he was in the wrong place at the wrong time – so I went to bed. Exhausted beyond belief.

Friday – (Great day!) Woke up, came home with Meryl, mom came home like an hour later. I called Kyle and we talked for about an hour. I had a talk with mom about Kyle. She knows he stayed over, but we didn’t have sex. And she just thinks that if I go out with him my reputation at school would be shot, because I’d be going out with that type of guy, I kind of understand what she’s saying, but I don’t agree with her and dad, “You’re only as good as the people you hang out with,” <- lame. I know my friends are amazing people, but my life is changing. I’m meeting other people, and everything happens for a reason. I really like Kyle, he’s fun and outgoing and has a life as opposed to Hunter. And like with Hunter I agreed with mom and dad and what they were saying, now with Kyle I don’t agree. So, mom and Meryl went with me to run errands – bank, michael’s, mall and goodwill – got some awesome boots! After that the four of us went out to eat at Milwaukee burger with Oma and Opa. It was so long. I told mom there was a movie night at Delia’s, so I went to that once we made it home. I picked up Kyle, we went to a park. It was a park on the other side of town with a big cliff over the river. So awesome! There were two guys there fishing, a 10-year-old and a freshman. Kyle messed with them by making them jump off with the rope. It got dark out and we walked back to my car on the way he asked me out, we were holding hands and I said yes! 😊 we went in the back seat of my car and uhm, fooled around and then went to the gas station to get some drinks. He drove my car down there. I got 2 mountain dews and some candy, and he stole a colt 45. We went to a school and hung out in my car and then to his grandma’s house to pick up his stuff and then I took him home – came home 20 minutes late. Mom sat me down and talked to me, she didn’t believe I was at Delia’s. I smelled like Kyle’s cologne. I told her I was at movie night and that I thought about what her and I had talked about earlier and it’d be better if I just was friends with Kyle. And I think she believed me. So yeah, came up stairs, laid in bed, called Kyle, told him everything and we want to hang out tonight after work but I don’t know how to cover that up. So yeah. We had phone sex kind of and I was tired so I fell asleep after I hung up with him.

So that’s been my week, pretty great. I really like him and he really likes me, we have fun together and I’d like him to meet my friends like at a poker night or something. And at this very moment mom and dad are talking about meeting him tonight after work 😊. I think dad is a little easier about it than mom. So, I’m hoping for the best.

I’ll write more later.

❤ Ava Estelle

Present day me: it’s fun to read about the shenanigans I got into as a teenager. I knew Kyle wasn’t a good influence but at that point I did care. He was around my age, cute and liked to have fun.